On death and endings

"Whoever claims that it's omnipotent
is himself living proof
that it's not."
-Wislawa Szymborska
On Death, Without Exaggeration

I've been thinking about endings lately, what with the end of the year coming up and all. I kind of like the feeling they give me; the pit-of-your-stomach all knotted up feeling that's a cross between being really upset and really nervous and really excited, except a bit more passive, more mellow. Difficult one to describe, but I'm sure you know what I'm talking about.

I'm a little bit reminded of endings also because there was a variety show last night and the chorus' last song was "For Now" from Avenue Q. I'm pretty sure that's my favorite song in the whole play, because it's a lovely, lovely ending without being too sappy, but it's also very true and a very good way to... end. "Everything in life is only for now". I must be a little strange though, because everyone else thinks it's an eh-ish song. Oh well.

I want to see that play so much. So much.

I also don't want this year to be over. It was... good. And I will miss people who are graduating. Then again, maybe next year will be good, too. I suppose I just shouldn't try to hang on too tightly. It'll all be good.